Yo, folks. Time to talk about some heavier stuff.
I recently watched a video by a longtime YouTube creator whose name I will not say. He spoke about how he took part in some of the YouTube drama that occurred in the earlier days, or something of the like. It wasn't any of the extreme drama, just the little things that we shrugged off back then...
Not to say it wasn't problematic even then... 😒
Long story short, apparently, YouTube and Instagram gave him hell to the point that it sincerely began to affect his mental health. I somewhat feel he did that to himself, but regardless, it made me think about the modern dangers and expectations of pursuing the content creator life.
Naturally, these are musings. I don't know what it's really like because I'm currently not a content creator.
But I plan to be... 🙏🏾
This is tricky. I think it all depends on what part of the social sphere you belong to and what you do as a whole. I know for a fact I might get some flack in the future because I'll be covering a hell of a lot of topics on my YouTube channel, for instance.
Instagram; nothing much to say about it, for me. It'll just be for fun, really, but what that entails...I'm not certain right now. 😕
Now, said topics on my channel will not include stupid shit that always gets people in trouble like...I don't know, talking about Marilyn Manson or Johnny Depp or the Met Gala or some nonsense like that which I don't care about. 😐
No, the topics might every now and then stray into something like my honest opinions on things like abortion, polygamy, polyandry, etc. but it has to be relevant to what's been on my mind. They won't just come out of nowhere, from my side.
These are also controversial topics but they don't deal with other people.
If, by some chance, I do end up talking about someone, I intend not to mention their name...
That is my intention. 🤨
In actuality, because I'll cover so many topics, I don't know how I could possibly amass any sort of stable audience. But I do not care, really. This isn't for income's sake or something like that. This is for my own personal happiness and wellbeing.
If such a thing is possible through today's social media... 😒
Without a stable audience, I doubt there will be many expectations. But, of course, I have no idea what the future will fling my way.
The dangers of being a content creator...are pretty vast. Not just because of one's reputation but because of one's personal wellbeing too. Fortunately, I'm already at my lowest, so wellbeing is the last thing on my mind. I'm doing this because nothing can get worse than this.
I truly mean that.
I've never been bothered by things people say, even offline. Not unless it came from someone I cared about. But if you're some nobody, I don't give a flying fuck.
But my goal isn't to piss people off anyway. My goal is to simply speak my mind and since it seems like people might listen, why not share my opinions? I don't expect anything in return. It's an outlet, nothing more.
But there are dangers to my wellbeing nonetheless. I'm not so cocky that I think I won't be completely unaffected. I just have no idea how I might be.
I'm not worried about this. I'm actually kind of curious. 😅
I'm suicidal and at my lowest I've ever been in my life.
How can it possibly get any worse than this...?
Content creating is something I plan on doing for a long time. I don't know where it will take me, if anywhere, but it doesn't matter right now.
I am doing this for me.
For my mental health.
Whatever happens during that time or after that time... just happens.
At this point, I don't care if anyone's listening or not. Not really.
It'd be nice, sure.
But that's not my goal.