Wednesday, October 13, 2021

Why I won't pursue witchcraft now

Yo, folks. Something I plan on talking about on my YouTube channel is my journey as trans. This is a given, sorta. This includes my history as an individual raised in Islam, specifically living as a girl raised in Islam. 

Anyway, eventually, I'll talk about my near-lifelong interest in witchcraft. At the moment, I'll just talk about the interest in it now.

I've done a wee bit more "research" into witchcraft and I have to say, I'm interested more than ever before. Thing is, my mental state is such that I can't focus on learning anything, let alone something as complex and worthy of attention like witchcraft. ๐Ÿ˜Ÿ

I adore witchcraft. I admit, I don't quite know what my path would be. While I do have an interest in pagan religions, religion isn't for me. In all honesty, I've kind of...distanced myself from religion since Islam messed me up so badly—or, rather, the way I was raised as a Muslim messed me up so badly.

I do know I am severely attracted to the ocean. I wonder if there was some way I could follow a path connected to it. That would put me at such peace, I cannot begin to explain... ๐Ÿ˜Š

I know, I know. A "sea witch". That has a cool ring to it...but I wonder if such a thing is even possible?? ๐Ÿ˜ถ

To reiterate, I'm not at a healthy place in my life where I can devote myself to witchcraft practice. I wish with all my being that I could start now, but all it would do would put so much pressure on me and I'd probably feel like even more of a failure if I didn't manage to do the things I wanted to do when I wanted to get it done.

It's enough like that now as it is...

The best I can do right now is watch videos about witchcraft, real witchcraft, and keep myself informed while also entertaining my tiny brain. ๐Ÿง  My poor, tiny brain...

While on the topic of witchcraft...

The witchcraft trend

As someone who admires and truly respects witchcraft, I cannot fucking stand the obsession and trend that (mostly) girls have today with "witchy" things. Maybe this is an unpopular opinion, but I don't fucking care. 

I'll be the first to admit that I love buying witch-related things such as items with moons and crescents on them—and even wide-brimmed hats! "Witchy hats". I do like me a pointed hat...but I want to know the meaning of them before I wear them.

You know. Like a respectful person. ๐Ÿคจ

But these were things I wanted since I was a kid but were never so easily available to me, not because it's fucking trendy. It's more like a dream come true. So what I do for myself is take advantage of the situation before the trend goes away or some fucking shit like that. ๐Ÿ™„

At the end of the day, there's nothing I can do to prevent these people from calling themselves legit witches on their profiles and shit. Whatever. Do what you want.

Just...seriously?

Choices were made.

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